DailyDiary

*sighs*  I turn 26 this year.  That scares me soo much.  I know that I have done and experienced so much for someone my age which yes I am thankful for but when I was younger I had expected myself to have been settled down by now.  And whilst I was under 25 I figured that you only live once and I wanted to keep a firm grip on my youth and live as much as I can.  Now that I am in my mid to late twenties I do have that niggling urge to settle down.

I really want to do so many things in my life.  I want to own and run a nightclub or / and a dance studio.  I really want to learn German.  I’d love to learn to dance again.  I’d like to own a toy store.. one that sells real toys not the packaged plastic crap you buy these days… like toy stores used to be.  I want to own a nice house, have two kids and be happily married (we’re getting married in 2011.. yay!!).

There is more but I cant recall all of them.  Now the one thing in common that all of my work related goals have is that I am in most cases the owner of the establishment.  Has been this way since high school.  I have always loved helping others and loved being team leader in cadets and at school.  When I did my diploma of retail management I always said that I wanted to own a company so I can treat my employees right, as I have been in many a job where the employees have been treated like absolute crap.  The mood and comfort of your employees directly reflects your sales.

One thing I’d love to just leave uni right now and do is go through Centrelink’s NEIS (New Enterprise Incentive Scheme) Program.  It’s a course you do through them that helps you develop a business plan and start your business and they also help fund you and keep in touch with you for 52 weeks after the business opens.  I’d looovvee to have my Dance School up and running.  I could learn to dance again and help others to learn at the same time (hiring a teacher of course). *sighs*

Sad thing is that I have some major hurdles to get over.  One – somehow explaining to people that I lift my Uni coure to open a business that could potentially fail in its first 3 years of running (soo many do these days). Two – Making sure my finances are in order because if I get in trouble it not only gets me in trouble but also my fiancé and our housemate.  Three – getting over my lack of confidence to actually go and do it anyway.  I keep feeling like either I am not worthy of owning my own business or that I am going to fail at that too or that people won’t support me and that for me is HUGE as I am a people person.

Oh, I dunno hey.  I really don’t know.  I can’t do my real dream and that is to be a dancer… so this is why I want to achieve the next best thing…helping others reach their dreams.